Not to imply that things are all butterflies and cupcakes here. I have had some really tough times in the past eight weeks and went through a baby blues phase that made me feel pretty isolated, sad and left me crying a lot. Motherhood is hard. Recovering from having a baby is hard. Breastfeeding is hard. All of combined makes life seem more than hard and almost impossible at times. But I got through it one day at a time and those smiles and snuggles make it totally worth it. Today I took a 2 hour nap with my daughter and woke up with her hand resting on my cheek, her baby smell all around me and I realized how blessed my life is.
I promise one day I will write about more than motherhood, babies,etc but for now this is my life.
I just wanted to write down a few memories from her first month (even if it's almost time to write about her second month!)
Highs: Your birth, Christmas with you and the entire family, your unaware sleep smiles, the way your clasp your hands together when you sleep, breastfeeding, watching my husband become a father
Lows: Mastitis, thrush, third degree tear, baby blues, sleep deprivation, breastfeeding (yes it is both high and low)
Your personality: You have the girliest wails/screams and are showing signs that you will be feisty and expressive. You roll on your side no problem, track objects and your neck control is pretty incredible. You love to snuggle and sleep on Mom and Dad. Or really anyone but I like to think that you prefer us. You love high contrast images and also the B&W stuffed panda bear that your Chacha (Uncle) got you. You talk to him (aka make lots of cooing noises) and are able to follow him with your eyes.
And of course some pictures...
Me and my little lady
Your cousin and uncle admiring you
Sleeping on mommy with clasped hands
Unaware baby smiles
Your first Christmas
You and Daddy. This position always calms you down
Little baby fingers
You and Daddy right after you were born
Being introduced to the family
You and your Seeya (grandfather)